I miss this place. I've been realizing lately that I've been taking a lot of the things out of my life that make my life happy. Thus, it's not a big surprise that I'm sad and surly.

I have been taking a sleeping pill at night to get enough sleep. It's working really well and I have felt good for 3 whole days...you know....in. a. row.

My husband and I have decided that we're going to put into the works a plan to send the kids to bed by 8, so that we have more time together. Russell will get to watch TV until 830 and read until 9, but we need some down time together without munchkins and we're not getting it, so we're going to make it. And we've both been making an effort to do stuff with each other.

My husband who often teases me with,"So? You wanna do it?" was put off the other night when I said the same thing to him. Color me stunned. It was not so long ago that he'd have ripped all his clothes off, shaved faster than spit, and said,"Hell, yes!" I just never thought he'd grow up.

I had a talk yesterday with Russell about being responsible for his education. I had no idea I felt so strongly about my own education. I feel like I am paying for this fucker with time away from my kids, time from my husband, money from my family's budget, and by God, I am going to make my professors make me understand everything I need to. I ask questions. I make them repeat. I am a hardass because this education I am getting is MINE and no one can take that away from me.

CS, I hope you figure out a way to get yours, too. This is the best and hardest thing I've ever done.